Like I’ve mentioned before this is by far the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.
When I was in college, I lived like an idiot.
I’ve withdrawn from (in order of easiest to hardest) sleeping pills, cocaine, nicotine, alcohol, opiates, sugar, and Lexapro.
I did a completely sugar-free diet for a month and a half. Meaning zero sugars and no carbs. I lost thirty pounds in thirty days (no exercise) and was completely miserable. No fruit either. I’m talking meat and vegetables for forty-five days. After all the crap, I have put my body through sugar was the hardest until Lexapro. If you think you are not addicted to sugar, I dare you to try this diet! I recommend watching the documentary Fed Up. I saw it on net flix.
All of that to say tapering off of an anti-depressant after twelve years was incredibly difficult.
BUT, the good news is that it is not impossible!
After two weeks of 0mg, I’m starting to feel much better.
I no longer hit that wall at night like I used to.
I don’t have stomach problems or nausea anymore.
I’m still learning to deal with anger, but it is getting much easier.
I might get one brain zap a day but it will stop.
I’m still a little absent minded, but I’m getting better.
I’m no longer paranoid or restless.
After 120 days, I finally don’t feel like complete crap all of the time.
Many times I didn’t think I would make it, but I did, and so can you!
I hope that what I have shared will help you to have hope, motivation and find some relief from the crazy withdrawals from SSRIs.
There are a lot of very sad and difficult stories to read of people trying and not being able to finish tapering off of their medication. I hope that most people post their horror stories and then actually do make it but just forget to go back and tell others what they accomplished.
I made this simple blog to add a story of success to the sea of chaos I found when researching Lexapro and other SSRI withdrawals.
I sincerely hope that something you read here has helped. If only one person finds comfort in these words, then I am happy.
I plan to post periodic updates on how I am doing and how long I have been off of Lexapro. I will also be sure to address any issues that might come up or post any other resources I find.
I want to finish this post with something amazing I have experienced in the last 21 days.
I’ve been married for almost three years, and my wife did not know I had a dimple in my left cheek because I did not smile! I’ve always been known to have a smirk when I’m amused or happy but never a full on smile. After my wife had noticed it, then, several friends started commenting on it as well.
I had lunch with a friend last week who said I look a hundred times less depressed now that I’m not taking an antidepressant.
Later I called my mom and mentioned the dimple, and she also had no idea I had one. I realized my mother must not have seen me smile in the whole twelve years I had been taking Lexapro!
I know I have made the right decision in getting off of this terrible drug. I can’t wait for you to discover similar things when you are off too!